final words

So tonight was my last night in Erison. I gotta say, it was a great show. If I had to go out any way, it would have been the way it happened. It was kinda sad but to be completely honest, I feel so much more relieved than I do remorse. Being in that band just became a burden over time and I realized that it doesn't matter how famous or rich it may make me, I'm not going to be happy if I stay in it. So, I decided to leave. God played a big roll in my decision to leave. I hadn't really been spending much time with him for the past year or so but starting almost about a month ago I'd say, while I was already contemplating leaving the band, I started feeling God tugging. So I made time to pray and talk and over that time I realized why I wasn't content or happy with my life. It was because I had strayed from God, even though I wasn't really doing anything bad. Some people would say I'm retarded for leaving the band but I feel like it was one of the best choices I've ever made. I feel so relieved and that there's now enough room for God to really work in my life the way I want him to. Anyway, I'm wiped and I have work in the morning. Tonight was great :) updates later.