FOR ALL OF YOU OBAMA SUPPORTERS

Try and swallow this:

http://www.theurbangrind.net/?p=2570

where to from here?

So the plan right now is to go to Midlands Tech and transfer out to a university. I'm considering USC, CofC, Winthrop, University of Florida. I'm pretty sure I want to get a business degree in finances and for that the better choice would be USC, but I really really want to be close to the ocean. And Seacoast is down in Charleston, I would love to get involved there. But CofC is only known for being a party school anymore. That and I'm not sure how distracted I would be at CofC by everything else. I guess it's a matter of where my heart is, just like every decision in life. Do I go to USC where I'll probably get a higher education and better employment opportunities or do I go to the ocean, the place I love?

Decisions, decisions...

final words

So tonight was my last night in Erison. I gotta say, it was a great show. If I had to go out any way, it would have been the way it happened. It was kinda sad but to be completely honest, I feel so much more relieved than I do remorse. Being in that band just became a burden over time and I realized that it doesn't matter how famous or rich it may make me, I'm not going to be happy if I stay in it. So, I decided to leave. God played a big roll in my decision to leave. I hadn't really been spending much time with him for the past year or so but starting almost about a month ago I'd say, while I was already contemplating leaving the band, I started feeling God tugging. So I made time to pray and talk and over that time I realized why I wasn't content or happy with my life. It was because I had strayed from God, even though I wasn't really doing anything bad. Some people would say I'm retarded for leaving the band but I feel like it was one of the best choices I've ever made. I feel so relieved and that there's now enough room for God to really work in my life the way I want him to. Anyway, I'm wiped and I have work in the morning. Tonight was great :) updates later.

stretch me across the ocean

This is for future reference to anyone who actually reads this: I am a strong believer in God but am not your "typical" christian. I don't believe "cursing" is wrong because A- nowhere in the bible does it say anything about cursing being bad and B- curse words actually have meanings behind them that aren't bad at all. The word fuck actually has the definition of fornication under consent of the king. Back during the black plague the king commissioned people to go have sex and repopulate England. Those people were called fuckers. The other words have explanations too but I'll talk about this another time. To the point:

I'm so damn tired of being single!

I can't stand it. It's driving me nuts. I want to find the girl who absolutely takes my breath away and who wants me just as bad as I want her. You know, I keep praying and looking but all I get is this combination of fear and passion that tears me apart. I am so passionate to meet a girl who I can share my life with and just be myself around, who will see eye to eye with me on issues that are important, who will understand the meaning of commitment, who will love me until the end. But most importantly, a girl who will understand me. I've been through a lot in my past when it comes to the opposite sex. I need someone who won't freak out and run away when I open up to them. Every time I find a girl who I begin to like I'm so afraid to open up to them because every single time I have before they just freak out and take off in the opposite direction. I want a deep, meaningful, passionate relationship with someone who understands love and what it means. I can't stand being alone. It's not healthy. I want so badly to find the love of my life.